Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Thoughts on a Word: Pretty

When I first met Mary Duffy, our conversations quickly turned to stuff that could keep me going for hours: What does it mean to be beautiful, or to witness beauty? What does it mean to be a "pretty girl"? Is there such a thing as objective beauty, or does the idea of such a thing remove the essence that makes something beautiful? Many of the ideas from those conversations have found their way onto this blog—and now you get to hear from her, in today's guest post. Mary Duffy lives, bikes, and writes in Philadelphia, and you can follow her on Twitter @maryfduffy.


The first time I think hard about the word pretty, is a few years ago, when my all-girl old-time band, Gerle Haggard, is working on an Elliott Smith song I picked for us to cover. Something about Smith's song, “Twilight,” has a hint of the southern old-time lyrics I love, and I know it's going to sound great. As we work out the arrangement I sing the first chorus: “She's a pretty thing, she knows everything, but I'm already somebody's baby.” It's that very lyric, “she's a pretty thing,” that has been hinting at the plainspokenness I think translates “Twilight” from indie folk to the old-time genre. “Pretty” in song lyrics may be a feature of my thinking on the subject, whether it's Roy Orbison singing “Pretty Woman” or Sondheim's “Pretty Women” in Sweeney Todd.

What is pretty? Pretty is superficial. Pretty is a judgment we can make in one second. “Yeah, she's pretty” is the tightfisted compliment women dole out when they envy somebody's appearance but can't admit it. Women? Me. It's the compliment I will grudgingly give out when someone asks me what I think of an attractive woman we know. Pretty is not a compliment, it's a concession: She is pretty. 

Pretty was something I envied. I envied women I thought to be easily, instantly attractive, women whose features require no hard work. Beauty may be in the eye of the beholder, but Pretty is easy on the eyes. And despite the titles of the songs, I think of the word pretty, and I hear “girl,” like those psychiatric association tests. “Pretty?” “Girl.” Pretty girls were pretty, and my definition has a hard time escaping the tautology. Pretty: a state of being I could never attain, not being pretty myself. Pretty girls had a kind of surface of perfection that made them impervious to the slings and arrows of adolescence, was how it seemed. Pretty is a word for girls, rather than women.

Who is pretty? And what was a pretty girl in my girlhood? I have in mind an amalgam of many girls in middle and high school. I have an amalgam in mind because I realize the Pretty Girl looked like all the other pretty girls, precisely because she was pretty. 
 
She had lank, honey-blond hair. She wore makeup, and silver spoon rings, preppy clothes. She didn't have those little red dry-skin pimples on her legs, her legs which were not pale, either, but all a very nice even tan. I could never understand how generations of people with ostensibly Northern European ancestry—with last names like Murphy, Bauer, Andersen—managed to breed this crop of girls who could tan so well. I eventually figured out what a tanning bed and bronzer was. Likewise, I couldn't understand why they all had this very odd sort of honey-blond brownish hair, until I figured out that not only women who wanted to cover up gray bought hair dye. 
 
Somewhere in that time period a woman complimented my complexion, and I haven't forgotten it to this day. Which means that prettiness occupied a very big place in my young mind, at least for a while, at least until my slightly older but still young self got preoccupied with whether I was “hot,” or “sexy.” But where does that leave me with pretty, now that I'm not really a girl, and have maybe finally forgiven all the pretty ones for being “pretty.”

Just a couple of weeks after we met, a friend played a different Elliott Smith song for me, “Pretty (Ugly Before).” It's a love song, of course, and in sharing our musical tastes with each other, he played this one for me. The chorus of it goes, “I feel pretty, pretty enough for you / I felt so ugly before, I didn't know what to do.” Shakespeare it's not, but it's as true as pop songs get. Until I heard that, pretty was the purview of some very ordinary teenage queen bees whose names I barely remember today. For Smith, pretty and ugly could be feelings, not congenital conditions. I felt ugly before, too. And how can I forget West Side Story? Sondheim again: I Feel Pretty.

Pretty is a pedestrian kind of beauty, one I can't understand having ever wanted to attain, or couldn't, until I looked up the definition. Flowers are pretty, girls are pretty, and sometimes we speak of something being a pretty story, a pretty picture. Wrapping this piece up, I finally look at what the dictionary says about pretty, and it makes me wished I had looked up the definition back when I wanted the boys to think I was pretty: (adj) Attractive in a delicate way without being truly beautiful or handsome (n) An attractive thing, typically a pleasing but unnecessary accessory. It's easy to be pretty and it's easy to like pretty things, and it's natural to want to be liked by everyone, easily. But I wish someone had reminded me that it also meant “without being truly beautiful or handsome.”

12 comments:

  1. Nice Post. I totally knew those same girls. And, come to think of it, I never looked at the definition of this word before either, and definitely imbued pretty with more than it deserved!

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  2. To me, "pretty" is a type of beauty, not a degree; I find Uma Thurman beautiful, but not pretty. Vice versa for Cameron Diaz. Some people are both, which hardly seems to those who are neither. I also think men can be pretty and women handsome, though I'm careful about voicing those opinions.

    Pedestrian as it may be, "pretty" still feels like a long shot on most days.

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  3. My definition of pretty differs a bit from yours, but I loved how you articulated your opinion. I wrote a similar piece- blossomingbadass.blogspot.com/2011/04/on-being-pretty.html
    I'd love if you could check it out! :)

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  4. Alexa, I liked your post and I think we do think along similar but the not exactly the same lines.

    I differentiate "pretty" and "beautiful" but I wasn't going to write about that difference extensively here. And given the blog's title "Beauty and What It Means" I'll let Autumn tackle that "beauty" herself.

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  5. ... typically a pleasing but unnecessary accessory...

    Wow. I had not known this before, either, but it makes sense in a lot of the ways I've heard "pretty" used -- even by speakers who I think were also unaware of this connotation.

    A few weeks ago, I wrote up one of my observations here in response to a poem. I teach in a school where it's fairly common to refer to girls as "pretty" (rather than beautiful, sexy, hot, whatever) when talking about them as... well, accessories... tools to help the speaker accomplish some purpose.

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  6. I hadn't known about this definition of "pretty" either, though I sensed it.

    Cameo, I wonder if part of imbuing "pretty" with more than it deserved (which I did as well) was part of being young? When I was a teenager, as much as I wanted to stand out I also very much wanted to fit in. I no longer wish to look like the prettiest girl in the class, though; I long to look like the best version of myself, you know?

    Rebekah, I think in that way too--types, not degrees. It's not like if someone becomes just pretty enough they'll become beautiful, or that if a beautiful person loses some of it (can that happen?) s/he would become merely pretty. Also: I just learned that in the Dutch language there's no differential in terms used to describe men and women as being good-looking. So we can play with a man being pretty or a woman handsome, but that means something specific, which I think is indeed fun to play with.

    Alexa, I commented on your post just now but a second thought came to me: I think that people are sometimes surprised when a woman makes a strong statement about prettiness, whether it be "I am pretty" or "I am not pretty." (In fact, even though I try to champion every woman's vision of herself, I still initially hedged against the line in this essay "not being pretty myself" because Mary is perfectly pretty, though not in the bland, homogenized way that she's talking about here.) There's a power to it, and it can allow the woman to define a more individual space for herself.

    Mary, I've wondered if I'm ever going to actually write up "beauty"! Maybe I'd do that years from now--quite honestly, I don't know if I've come much closer to a definition of it I'm comfortable with.

    Tori, the connotation is indeed surprising, and I think some people truly use it as a synonym for "beautiful," but I also think that whether or not they realize it, "pretty" is often used as a very nice way to treat someone as an accessory. It's not a word you'd generally use to describe a woman over 40, for example, unless you were talking about her looking girlish. I wonder how much we absorb when we use these words?

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  8. Mary, that's an awesome story. Because, I mean, how often do we really hear that without there being some odd edge to it? If it's a friend it can seem competitive (though not always, but unfortunately we're socialized that way); if it's a man it can seem like a come-on. I love that this was just a straight-up acknowledgment of the pretty girl across the table!

    Also, I can't believe we didn't yet mention The Wizard of Oz. "I'll get you, my pretty!" Ha!

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  9. This is a really great article! I'm in eighth grade and a girl I know is sort of condescending and rude sometimes, but everyone likes her(even me at times) because she is musical, athletic, smart, and yes, pretty. I searched "what does it mean to be pretty" on Google, hoping to find her secret. Instead of learning how she does it, i found this! Thank you, this has made my day, week, month, and even school year!
    -LGLavender

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    1. Hi LGLavender--I'm so glad you found this! For the record, I think the "secret" to being the sort of person people admire is to do the best you can at being you. That might sound cheesy but it's absolutely true! When I've tried to fashion myself after someone else--whether that means I start adopting their style, or decide I should act more like them (louder, funnier, more patient, whatever)--not only have I failed, but I've missed out on developing parts of myself that will always serve me better. This blog is an example of that, actually! I tried writing essays that didn't quite feel "true" and did okay but nothing special. Once I started writing here, I found people really wanted to read what I had to say.

      In any case, glad you found this helpful--I forwarded this on to my guest blogger, Mary, who wrote it.
      xoxo,
      -Autumn

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